I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
STOP=).
12:32 PM
how i wish i didn't have to say anything and you'd just know.
that would make everything feel alright. really.
STOP=).
6:30 AM
Perfect world - simple plan
I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart
Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
it hurt to realize your words meant nothing at all.
and that you never realized i was still hurting.
i never made it through without you - just so you know.
STOP=).
4:53 AM
fcuk. i really need to train. but there's like no time at all?
and im so sure i'm gonna fail mya and get expelled x(
touchwood luh! study study study study study.
can everything stop crashing down like that?
STOP=).
7:21 AM
Crap i can't concentrate on mugging and that sucks.
i know two wrongs don't make a right. and i really want to make things right x)
i'm trying hard, if you can tell. so don't shut me out
I kept hoping i wasn't so unimportant to you. that you'd realize something was wrong.
i'm tired of waiting and waiting for you to be there.
i don't want to have to beg for you to care.
if you think can't take time off your BUSY LIFE for me, then forget it.
i'd rather hate you.
Crash and burn - savage garden
When you feel all alone,
and the world has turned its back on you,
give me a moment please,
to tame your wild wild heart.
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you.
Its hard to find relief, and people can be so cold.
When darkness is apon your door.
and you feel like you cant take anymore
Let me be the one you call,
if you jump i'll be ready to fall,
lift you up and fly away with you into the night.
If you need to fall apart,
I can mend a broken heart,
if you need to crash, then crash and burn your not alone.
When you feel all alone and a loyal friend is hard to find,
your goin' on a one way street,
with the monsters in your head.
When hopes and dreams are far away and you can't face the day.
Let me be the one you call,
if you jump i'll be ready to fall,
lift you up and fly away with you into the night.
If you need to fall apart,
I can mend a broken heart,
if you need to crash, then crash and burn your not alone.
'Cause theres always been heart ache and pain.
And when its all over you'll breath again, you'll breath again.
~
not everyone can crash and burn
STOP=).
6:21 AM
Just so you know - Jesse Mccartney
I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but I cant move
I cant look away
And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop
[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I cant help it
I wont sit around, I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go of you
But I dont want to
I just gotta say it all Before I go
Just so you know
Its getting hard to be around you
Theres so much I cant say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop
It's really time to let go.
STOP=).
6:38 AM
grah. It sucks that i don't even dare to talk to you anymore.
and there's like so much to say - even though i wouldn't really know how to explain it too.
it's okay...i know you don't really care to know
i've been putting up with you, but i'm losing my patience.
and of course i would understand - you're making the same mistakes.
STOP=).
6:45 AM